eileen_me

Today was seriously a draggy and dreadful day...Early morning had to attend FYP meeting..Thank God i wasn't late...And then after that i realise work starts at 5pm instead of 5.30pm..So i had to rush home after school to get change and headed for work straight away...While having a ride in the bus after work, heading home, it was raining outside so heavily i couldn't see through the glass window.. Starring out, i had the thought of walking home under the rain..

I thought, when was the last walk i had under the rain, so after much thoughts, i was at kovan MRT and after alighting the bus. Only then i realise the rain was not heavy alrd, it was just drizzling...Nevertheless, i still went on with my walk home..as i was walking, at times, the rain got heavier, but got smaller too..so through out the walk  i was wet, drying, wet again, drying again.. I seriously had no idea why i was so down today man..

My last walk under the rain was when i took a really big blow from my best fren...and that was last...The rain makes me feel very comfortable walking in..After every rain walk, i feel much happier:) I think i had a thought since young that the rain was off everything...So i wash my hands under the rain last time..and as i enter secondary school, i start to get the idea that it washes away everything, even wad can't be seen on the surface..

This rain today made me thought alot today and i haven't realise why i wanted the walk...But i am praying hard that i am not escaping from anything..because i dun want to...

After genting trip, homies decided to go for night cycling!! plan was to cycle to rochor for nice tau huay and then lepak(slack?) until morning 11am then go ian's hus and stay over...but..are we so lucky or wad..haha...jacq called and say she is holding on to a 3d2n chalet now and it's empty...hahah..and i replied Amen! haha...

This chalet was simply perfect...it looks like a beautiful dream house and it feels like one too:) So nice that staying in watching DVDs was cool enough to spent our nights...haha...when it's fun..it seems like time pass so fast...this 3 days was like so not enough...then again..why ask for more when in the first place we have none..hee...there was ian, his girl, adham, syahril, jacq eunice, cy and me:) we totally owned the place since there was only a handful of us..haha and i learn new games...Blind mice and some poker game...
Friday morning was check out day...i lied to my advisor that i was having fever...HAHA and can't be there for the meeting...lol...end up the meeting was cancelled..lucky again...haha

okayss! short and sweet chalet had passed...next coming up, our wild wild wet trip on thursday:) and yes!! we are gonna watch clash of the titans!!!! wooohooo!!! happy happy happyyssss!!!<3
excited!! (jumps, jumps!)

Went Genting last week with the homies:) haha.. my first trip with Adham, Syahril and Pamela (Ian’s girl) , second trip with nice and Ian:)
This trip was totally awesome!!

When we arrive at genting, it was about 3pm? Then after check in and stuff we met again at 6pm...when dinner at Kenny Rogers...super cheap...lol..Cheapest Kenny Rogers I ever eaten:) haha then we headed for snow city...We were all numb in there..Haha..Freaking cold can...and some more i was wearing shorts. On top of that, they wipe the ice on my leg =_=...All numb when we were making our way to the exit...the 3 guys bought a decent checked scarf for themselves :)
After snow city, it was about 1pm, we decided to go bowling (although I don’t know how to bowl haha)...it was damn cool man...it's some kind of luminous techno setting and very dark...lol...but still can see ALL the standing sticks that i missed...haha..after bowling, we went for a little shopping here and there and headed back to hotel:) first day ended

The beginning of day 2 was quite funny, me and nice woke up already Syahril and Adham still sleeping!!! So while waiting, as usual i took some pictures...haha...we were suppose to meet 9.30am for old town breakfast but we met at 11.30 for lunch instead...when we saw Ian, Adham and Syahril, we din know whether to laugh or not...They were dressing the same top! HAHAH... with the 3 scarf they bought last night...lol...after old town, we entered the theme park as planned earlier...first ride was already scary enough...lol...to the guys were nth, but to us was something...haha...after the first ride we went for a higher level one called CORKSCREW which is like a roller coaster that flip 360 degree...so damn scary...but like Adham say...scary the merry...haha...it was pretty fun on the second time..Haha...So after we passed the second level we proceeded for the highest level i guess..SPACESHOT...and err..indeed it was highest level, the thing will just fly all the way up and then hold there for a couple seconds and drop all the way down...it felt like my heart is still up there while my body is downstairs...lol..But it was quite addictive, i kept wanting to sit that again...haha..After that we went for a short break and continue the fun again..Right at the end, i wanted to hooked this bear very much..So I went to change some tokens and gather them to play tgt...there are bottles on the table, we just have to throw the ring into any of the bottles, we will get the bear i want...but unfortunately, after changing 30RM of token which is about a hundred rings, we still couldn't get it...well, a little disappointed at then...but the fun continues...the theme park closed at 10pm so we left at 10pm...

After spending the whole day at the theme park we decided to do some midnight shopping after dinner...dinner was quite bad...we went to pizza hut for dinner, maybe supper, and erm the service totally sucks, the people there are so lazy...so we quickly ended that dinner and started shopping SPREE!!!:) Nice was not feeling well, so she rested her at the room before dinner...While me and Pamela headed for the washroom, the guys did their shopping first...but we couldn't find them when we were out...so we walk around searching fr them and TADAH!! They appeared with a bear for me...because i couldn't hook it at the theme park...haha so sweet right!!:) THX MANY MANY GUYS!!!! haha..looking at how the guys shop for children clothing for their nephew and nieces tickles me...lol...I don’t know how a 2 years old kid can exchange her dress with her pri 5 sister if they cant fit their own ones...haha...it was hilarious when i heard it from Syahril..After the shops closed at 2am, we took a walk outside, back to old town to get some drinks at the grocery shop next door that operates 24 hours..
And thereafter, we took many pictures under that freaking cold weather...And best part is, ian and Pamela can still eat ice cream...lol
so our second day ended...

Third day was short and sweet...we went to Kenny Rogers for brunch and then did our last shopping and headed back...through out the whole journey up and down in the bus, nice did not vomit..So proud of her... :)

This trip with these lovely peeps was really a wonderful, beautiful trip!! :) And I am thankful that we know each other and we are this close:) there somehow will be partings and quarrels but I am sure they are just obstacles that we will overcome:)

And Ardi Gunawan, where are you?? we really miss u:)

Some days ago, i had a big quarrel with dad.. A really serious one. The worse that it can ever get (so far). And the trigger to this arguement is religion and work. He wants me not to go church anymore..*sobs* but well, that i will rebel..i cant probably obey to that. I know he wants me to spend time at home, but i feel that sometimes he need to understand my priorities. And he is really being too unreasonable and childish. Or i believe i could still bear with it. But he've cross the line this time. I just couldn't control my anger that day.
But now that days has passed, as family, shouldn't things just fade away and life as a family resumes? I am already trying not to pick up arguments with him, can he also do that? Now there's nothing for us to talk. Things just changed after that night and i am already changing my bible study on wednesday to saturday just  spend time at home, but he just ignore me.

However, i know i can't just give up. Jacq says that i should prove that i changed for the better after accepting christ. So, although he is ignoring me,  i will still greet him everyday i come home, i will still tell him where i'm going and what time i'll be back and stuff until one day he answer me:) probably have to change my lifestyle a bit here and there. Making the effort to come home early is really tedious. I don't know if i can do it. But definitely i must try. If i don't even try, then thats what really disappoint him, isn't it?

Today was damn long day...i partial for class and had few stuff after school to attend to...I am very very very tired today because first i only sleep 4 hours last night and i had to last until 12am then i reach home.. But of cuz, thats not really the reason la...its just part of it...My bestie recently met withsome problems so i think alot in that area but now its alright alrd la=) all solved!!=) happy for him:)


Certainly for me to post at this hour, it must be really important..haha...okayss, indeed it is...Again, it is something i must administer it into me so i must post it as a evidence for myself...I "mentally" lost a fren today..kind of... I realise her words are so true, i noe i should have believe her but i couldn't bring myself to do it...so well, now that i trip and fell, i finally saw the hole..Too bad for me, i deserve it..see la dun listen la..So i can only blame myself for bringing all these upon me...I don't think i can get any help, i have to do this alone. And it is going to be so hard.. So hard to accept the truth of a lost of fren that could have been avoided...



i am seriously very tire and sleepy...i wanna slp so long that i wish i will be in coma and i can slp for a month!=) haha...Best...i just dun wanna wake up...ok i go slp now...bye!

i seriously hate myself now man!!!i cant believe that this is happening and i seriously lost hope alrd...but i cant blame anyone or turn to anyone cuz i am the one who made all these...I never felt this way before...so mix up feelings and i cant say...it makes me feel so shitty and guilty at the same time upset, angry, disappointed and stupid...okayss i seriously dunno why..i just never hated myself so much and having the "girl thing" so maybe that explains my mood...dammn!. 

Recently, many things have been happening around me, not on me...And that's what

upsets me...because if it happen to me, i wont feel guilty if i cant help myself...


Hey bud, you know there are many things in life that is unpredictable.. I know its

difficult...in fact, its VERY difficult...When me and WW heard about this, we kept in

silence...first, we were shock...really shock...second, we dunno how we can help but to see

the most upsetting scene in front of our very eyes...and third, we know u can

feel we care even if we dun say a word=) because i believe we are close to the extend

we can feel each other without saying it=)


my dear bud, keep in mind we are here...you know who we are...no matter what, u

need help, u come to us, and ur burden is half-shared=) half is for us to suggest and

the other half is for u to decide=) u are in our lives which always will be..nothing will

make it disappear alright=)



love u always my fren=)

My ideal birthday for this year is to go and catch a movie and then sit down at some stairs of something eating junk food chatting away…however, all my frens are very nice to mw they dun wanna let me eat junk food and bring me to nice place to eat…and I am glad my homies came up with so much surprises for me and I really appreciate them..thankns homies=) and thx my beloved Jazreel for planning my birthday on Tuesday. Though we didn’t get to watch movie but I am glad to have a nice dinner with your=)

Hey peeps, I appreciate everything that everyone have done for me…especially to organizers, sub-organizers and Leaders… you all did great!=) Seriously, it really all went well.. Special thanks to Jacq noob, Nice and Number 3 jazreel…all of u did so well.. went through troubles planning here and there…recruiting people and changing dates some more… I sincerely thank your from the bottom of my heart=)!

At lastly, I wanna thank my daddy!! Buying me a $1000 fishing rod and additional $100 for shopping!! I am going to learnt fishing and make good use of it=)

THANKS EVERYBODY!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

PART 1 (TUESDAY)

JAZREEL (ORGANIZER)

LYNN

VICTORIA

PART 2

JACQ (ORGANIZER)

EUNICE (SUB-ORGANIZER)

ARDI (SELF-CLAIM LEADER)

IAN

ADHAM

GINA

Okayss i think my communication in this team have probably got better BUT still they are too clever that i have difficulties working with them ony sometimes..hmmm today's topic alrd not easy and faci make us present other team's product which we noe nothing of...lol..okay, it turn out to be quite funny anyhow...haha...

Thank god i was presenting Ardi's slide and i asked him what it meant...i think even i didnt explain well, Ardi's was still at great help..And i spoiled his slides man...lol...dunno what i was explaining also...haha...And since we are presenting other's slide, it will take longer time as more question will arise and ppl take time to read and understand other's production..so i guess we will end probably at 4 plus...still praying that it won't end at 5pm...lol...pls man...

Good News!! No work on Saturday!! Yea!!haha then can go enjoy my sat le!! Hehe...or maybe can celebrate mother's day with Ah ma(granny) or mum...haha...yes i know i should celebrate with my mum...but my mum will wanna celebrate with her mum whose is my grand ma so erm...i guess we can just celebrate tgt...Dad says he will bring grandma over to our hus=) And i will see YONG ZHI!!! yea!!1 omg...i just miss him so much can...haiss poor kid stressing in school now probably...

Okayss later i will be going to TPY to collect my pay then Yio Chu Kang for my classes at 8...hmm so i think i will end at 9pm today...hope so man...i wanna slp early tonight...i dreamt of ghost last night...and i was so scare that i suddenly woke up at 5.18am...dun dare to slp but pig like me still fell asleep after probably 30 mins and continue dreaming about ghost...but it was another ghost... my own fren...omg...i must tell her when we eating later...

Yes last team already!!=) stop here and post again soon=) bye peeps...